Last night...

Me and a few of my friends stayed at my best friends house last night. We went to some guys house and had a house party. I got absolutely fucked. High and drunk. And I got major munchies and ate a load of shit. Urgh. And I feel a tad delicate...

Talking

Ever feel like you wanna talk to someone but you dont really know what to talk about. The obvious is like your thoughts and problems and whats wizzing around in your head, but you dont really know where or how to start. And sometimes, I wonder, is...

Ana...

For the past 4 hours, Ive done nothing but think. And I really shouldnt of because now I have a black cloud over me that wont lift. I hate that I cant go to my friends house because of food. I have to keep making up lame excuses. And its not fair...

A bit of thinspo and some other good stuff.

    ''That fucked up moment when your happy when you see someone has gained weight'' ''Everyday I wake up wondering if it'll be a eating disordered starving day, a 1200 calories and lots of exercise day, or a binge and fuck everything...

Last few days.

Okay, to admitidly the last few days havent been as good as I thought they would be. Buuut they havent been totally awful! Me and a friend were meant to be fasting today and yesterday... Yesterday was going great! I'd had gum, water and green tea....

Fasting.

Im fasting with a friend on here today. Im S H I T at fasts! When I get to the point where I really need food, it takes a lot of concentration and motivation to not let food touch my lips, and most of the time I fail. Note to self - Please...

Depression. Help?

Ive had depression for 3 years now, although it was only diagnosed but a doctor ealier this year (around feb or march). On one of my appointments they said to come back in 3 weeks and they'd probably prescribe anti depressants. However, 3 weeks later...

A few facts and tips...

Here are some facts... 1. There are about 3500 calories in 1 pound of fat 2. Every 2 jumping jacks = 1 calorie burnt 3. 7000 jumping jacks = 1 pound gone 4. 10 sets of 100 jumping jacks in 1 week will burn a pound. So on top of your...

Update and new plan

Okay, I know in my posts or status's I keep saying this, but I really have lost all my motivation. It has gone completely. Which sucks, yes. I need it back. I want it back. I am a fat lump of lazyness and FAT!!!  Maybe ana can sort me out. I...

My trip and general catch up.

Well Im back from Kent County Show! I camped there with some friends from college from thursday till today. We were working there this year and im getting payed like £200 :) scoooreeee. It was such hard work! LONG days and I mean long. 7.45am till...

Txting Ana Buddy...

I already email a couple of girls and their great, but I think I need that little extra nudge. You cant really look at your emails easily everywhere you go, but you can txt! My number is 07772943180 Txt me or comment on this if you wanna be ana...

Summer Ball at college

Got my outfit for the summer ball on wednesday. I love it. But everyone there is gonna be looking skinny and gorgous, then there's me. The blob. Not attractive! Its above the knee, but not super short. Really beachy summery style. Main colour is...

Back to Skinny Girl Diet

No weight is coming off and im going mad! So im starting the Skinny girl diet on monday. I NEED TO BE SKINNY! Ive been ignoring ana for so long I think its time I said sorry and listened to her again.

Purge?

I already have a bit of ana inside me, what about mia? Ive done it once before, but it took time and I felt awful after. But maybe I need to do this? Right now I dont see an alternative. Anyone out there purge after eating? Does it really...

Super excited!!!

I spoke to Bronte's owner and I can have her for summer! EEEKKKK :D Super super excited guys! She said I made her day because she's so happy someone loves her princess like I do!!!! I was like no you've made MY day!!!! So on the 9th of July, my...

Summer Positivity

Ive had a sudden burst of positivity! And Im suddenly really happy! =) Hopefully taking a horse from college home for summer! She's called bronte, she white with a few grey speckles and about 15.1hh and I LOVE her!! She's my baby girl! I wanna...

Not a good day :|

Urrrgh. Thats how I feel! I hate that I cant stop picking at food throughout the day! I drive myself mad doing it yet I still do! I need a HUGE motivational boost and a kick up the arse. Seriously, I need to sort myself out. Its nearly summer...

Ate too much.

Aaahhh this is bad. WHY megan WHY!? I seriously need to control myself, this is getting so bad now. I went to morning duties at college at 7am then we all went to breakfast. Everyone was eating toast with scrambled eggs and baked beans. I was like...

A letter from Ana

Allow me to introduce myself. My name, or as I am called by so called "doctors," is Anorexia. Anorexia Nervosa is my full name, but you may call me Ana. Hopefully we can become great partners. In the coming time, I will invest a lot of time in you,...

Letter to Ana

Dear ana, I offer you my heart and my soul. I offer everything to you. I feel so weak, and I know thats because of you. But I know you do it because you want the best for me. I seek your wisdom, your faith, your feather weight. Ana please...

Fast

Wow I feel rough! Kept throwing up last night. Got some bug :| its going round college in my block so I was bound to get it. Plus side is I cant keep any food down really so today is gonna be a fast. I havent done one of these in ages without caving...

Like a light switch

Not gonna lie, I feel like absolute shit. One minute I was fine, then BAM I feel like shit. I dont know whats wrong with me. The depression is back. There's no scales at college so I cant weigh myself. Dad kinda kicked me out on friday so I dont...

Positive thinking

Just spend about 20 mins looking at a great ana website. Its AMAZING. So much thinspo and tips and tricks! I highly reccommend it girls (: I know I havent posted for a few days, sorry! Ive been so busy and feeling kinda shit, but after looking at...