Past few days

Ive been quite busy over the past couple of days! - Spent all day in Maidstone with my sister on monday and did SO much walking! - Went up the yard with mum on tuesday and spent a couple of hours with cheeky charlie (: He's for sale and I want...

Getting back on track!

Okay, enough is enough! I need to get back on track NOW. So I'm gonna go to bed and tomorrow im going to get up early. Get my fat arse out of bed, put on my running trainers and go running! When I come back I'll jump in the shower, have some...

Fml

Feeling ridiculously emotional right now. Majorly. Just been told by the doctors I cant go back to college for 2 weeks due to my depression, and then I'll be re assessed. My anti depressant dose has been doubled, so she wants to see if that will...

I have a question for you all...

As you know from my previous post, I have to go see a psychiatrist. But I wanna ask you guys a few questions. Dont worry if you cant answer them. - What will happen on the first appointment - Ive self harmed for about 2 1/2 years, Ive OD'd...

Psychiatrist...

Went to the doctors today about my depression. Not last night but the night before, I wanted to end it all. But my friend stayed with me for 2 hours and kept me talking. She kinda saved me really. Anyway, I told the doctors the tablets arent...

The light bulb suddenly lit in my head.

Dont eat. Be strong Stop being a failure Push yourself Dont give up.   This is what is currently wizzing in my head. I havent taken my anti depressants for like 2 1/2 weeks now. They wernt working so I thought there was no point. But...

Sorry I havent posted...

Sorry sorry sorry! Ive been at college all week and the internet surver has been playing up so I havent been able to come on here :( Ive actually missed it SO much! So here's a little catch up on what ive been up to and what ive been doing... ...

College shizzle.

Okay so Im moving into college today! Got my last year then im freeee (: Kinda excited! Its good to be parent free and have sooo much more independance and I can do what I like! Hopefully im in a block with all my friends again. We all have the...

There's this guy...

There's this guy called matt. He's hot. Like wow hot. But he's such a nice guy. Wouldnt hurt a fly. So kind. Really funny. Pretty perfect really. And Im starting to like him. Really like him. Ive only met him twice and I know that sounds stupid!...

Im baaaaack!

Hello beautiful people! Im back from the New Forest! It was BRILLIANT! I will upload pics tomorrow :) The wild ponies own the New Forest so they have right of way and can do what they like. So if they wander into the road, you cant move them,...

Super quick update!

Okay I have to be quick because this is my friends laptop and she's only in the shower and will be out in a min! At the New forest with Jo and having a wicked time! Coming home tomorrow though :( I made my own ana bracelet today! Its cute and I...

The New Forest

OMG Im SOOOO excited guys! My best friend from college has invited me to go to the New Forest with her on monday for a few days! A nice lil break it just what I need! Were gonna stay in a B'n'B (: Her mum she she's gonna book us a hack around...

Tonight...

So tonight im staying at my best friends house (: gonna be good except.... She's cooking chicken korma for dinna and Were getting stoned = munchies. Maaaaaan Ive gotta try and not eat shitty stuff! And as far as the chicken korma...

2 days with my horsey friend :)

I had such a good two days! Stayed at my friend Helen's house on wednesday night. She has a horse called Ben. He's a dude. We rode him on wednesday and thursday (: did some jumping. Got a couple of pics to show you guys. Excuse the bad jumping...

Say goodbye to the calories!

Okay so really excited about tomorrow and thursday! Staying with one of my close friends from college. She has a horse called ben. Ive ridden him before. He's a dude. And he older sister full loans a horse called barney who is 17.3hh! Thats HUGE. Ive...

Updatee and all that jazz...

Hey guys....sorry I havent posted in a few days....havent really known what to write about! But I'm here now so...yay (: So how is everything in Megan's world? Meh. Same old same old. Havent lost anything. Infact I wouldnt be supprised if I have...

Survey... (:

How Many Calories Do You Consume A Day? 500 - 1000 What Do You See When You Look In The Mirror? A fat girl who see's no way out Are You In A Relationship? Kind of. Are You Depressed? Yes Ever Tried To Commit Suicide? No. But I have...

Thinspiration (:

One day people will  be reblogging pictures of you as thinspo...Keep that in mind. You will get there (:                                            

This weekend...

Okay so this weekend has been a drinking weekend....so many calories I cannot believe! Between 4 of us, last night and all of today we have had 2 bottle's of vodka, 2 bottle's of wine, a bottle of smirnoff black ice and 24 pints of beer!!!!! Its...

Update, fast and love.

Sorry I havent posted properly in a while guys! This is just kinda of an update really. Lost 2lb but im at a stand still now! Grrr. Thinking about doing a fast tomorrow....anyone with me? Went shopping on wednesday which was depressing. But I...

These tablets are confusing my body!

Sorry I havent posted in a few days! Havent really known what to write about. These anti depressants are really confusing my body! I keep getting headaches, I feel really sick when im in the car, I find myself doing wierd things! Like last night...

The next week or so in food... :)

Im hoping that if I do this, It'll help me stay on track! Sooo here we go :) Wednesday... - Breakfast; Half a grapefruit - Lunch; Other half of grapefruit - Dinner; Im staying at a friends but Ive asked to have some sort of salad.  ...

Do I have an ED?

Okay I'm gonna sound like a complete twat asking this, but do I have an eating disorder? You guys know my eating habits, I post about it all the time. I fast sometimes I restrict to no more than 700 calories a day I run a lot. I get...

Help.

I cant do this anymore. I dont know what to do. Im in a deep black hole and I see no way out. Ive given up trying to get better. I see no point anymore. I cant keep pretending everything is okay when inside im falling apart. I cant keep...