Lilly today!

Im sooooo proud of my girl! Rode her in the indoor school and she went so nicely! She now has front shoes which has made a massive difference! Plus she nows wears a breatplate which helps. She was tracking up in walk and trot, was really responsive...

Mental Health Team

Had a telephone assesment today. Had to fill in a questionaire this morning, and then go through it on the phone. Results were like this... Depression - severe Low mood - severe Anxiety - moderate   Now got to wait for a letter about...

Looking back...

I've just sat here and read some of my old posts.  And you know how it makes me feel? Sad. Because I didnt achieve any of my goals. I was supposed to of lost around 10lbs before christmas. That didnt happen. I was supposed to of started...

Im back! Need a bit of help...

Hey everyone, im back! Sorry its been sooooo long! Im not going to bore you with an update dont worry! I am looking for an ana buddy though. Really need someone to help motivate me. We can help each other out!  Someone in the UK would be...

Im sorry

Im so sorry I havent posted in months. Thoughts has changed so much! They layout and everything! I like the old one better :| Anyway, yeah Im alive. Not sure what to say so im just gonna do a little update... Mental state - shit. Been referred...

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Smile. Beause its easier than explaing why your sad.

Long over due update!

Sorry!!! I am alive and okay. Sounds horrible but I keep forgetting about thoughts! So thats my shitty excuse for not posting for aggeesss. Okay so food/weight wise im kinda confuzzled. Im like a fooking yoyo! Dont quite understand this but...

Im back; General update.

Hey everyone, sorry I havent posted in weeks! Been pretty busy really! Not loaning lilly anymore, mum brought her for me as a christmas present (: so thats a really positive thing in my life now! She's coming along brilliantly now, can trot her in...

Goals for moi.

My new goals... Okay so we have 16 days till christmas..thats 2 weeks and 2 days. Possibly the worst time of year for food... So I've gotta be strict with myself. I will weigh myself tomorrow morning (friday 9th) and I want to loose at least...

Plan for tomorrow!

Got a day off tomorrow...so this is my plan; 1. Get up at 6.15am 2. Out the house at 6.30am and go for a run 3. Be back for 7.15am at the latest 4. Shower, change and get ready 5. Out the house at 8.10 and go to the yard to see lilly ...

Lilly and shizzle

Lilly is coming on in leaps and bounds! SO proud of her (: Sat on her for the first time on monday, it was the first time anyone had sat on her in a year! And she just stood there, not bothered (: Sat on her again today and walked around the...

Take twice as long to eat half as much

I know my last few posts have been very horse related and not at all about food... Its just I've had a really bad week and being with lily helps me forget everything! But I cant hide away from the truth, so I've decided to write myself a letter....

Picture's from today :)

Went to the yard today to see my Lily bug! Gave her a nice long groom to make her even more beautiful (: Then lunged her and she was good as gold! She's really improving now and im really proud of her! Brought tia up too and gave her a lunge...

Lily!

I am SO happy! Im getting lily on full loan! EEEKKKKKK! :D She's only 4, she's 15hh at the moment, but is still bum high so will probably reach 15.1hh. She's a Haflinger and is gonna be an amazing jumper! She jumpe a 4ft fence from stand...

Nothing works anymore.

Ive gone for a run Ive had a cold shower Ive talked to gizmo and lily (bird and horse) Ive written stuff down Ive listened to music Ive read a bit of a book Why doesnt anything work anymore?   Still havent heard from...

I have a job interview tonight...and tomorrow.

I have been searching for a jab for AGGGESSSS and now I have an interview tonight via skype, and one tomorrow evening... The one tonight is for a nanny job. To look after a little boy, think he's 2 or 3... and do a bit of house work like tidying,...

Drowning

I have to wait 3 weeks to hear about councilling. And even then its only a phone assesment. I'll then have to wait a week or 2 after that, maybe more, untill I finally get an appointment. And right now, I dont feel like I can wait that long. ...

Catch up!

Really sorry I havent been on for a few weeks! Been really busy! Was my birthday on friday - Im now 18! It was an awesome night. I was buzzin' all night! Didint get in till 4am but I didnt sleep at all! And Im still tired :L Food hasnt been...