I dont know how to cope

Past few days ive been feeling worse and worse. Right now I feel like im back to how I was a few months ago. Back in that dark black hole, where it feels like there is no way out. Crying all the time. Wanting to purge. Wanting to cut. Wanting...

Purge

Sitting here on my bed. Tears streaming down my face. Hands shaking. Panicing. I want to purge. So badly. And I havent in well over a year. And that was only twice anyway. Twice in my life. But in the past week or so, its been playing on my...

Last night

Last night was crazyyyyy! Me and my friend went clubbing. Omg we were soo drunk. Dread to think how many calories I consumed in alcahol... But we danced till 3.30am and then walked home in the pouring rain...so we did burn some calories off!...

Proud

My beautiful girly is doing SO amazing at the moment! Went on our first ever hack on tuesday and she was an absolute star! Hacked yesterday and today too and had so much much. Went onto the gallops and zoomed round! She's making me so proud at...

ED movies....

I need a list of ED movies I can watch on youtube...... Ive already seen; Dying to dance (FAVE!) Perfect body For the love of nancy A secret between friends Hunger point Center stage Kate's secret Are there any others I...

Food

Just had an orange for breakfast. Yum. No junk. So sugary and fatty good. Eat clean. Work hard.

Arrrghhhhhh

Woken up in such a shitty mood. My friend is pissing me off and I have to spend the day with her. urgh. She takes everything so literal. Like she'll get offended by the most insignificant thing. And her mood changes likes a light switch. Its like,...

Hiding

Dad: You mood seems to have been a bit better lately Mum: We can see a difference in you. Maybe the tablets are starting to work!   Yeah you keep thinking that. Has it ever occured to you that im just hiding it better this time?